yes!!! finally it's over!!! I managed to escape alive from my 2-consecutive-weeks of exams everyday! I'm on the brink of madness....
eyebags duplicated their purpleness and depth, geez I'm green, I look like a zombie...
I just want fall on my bed and sleep for 3 whole days...I'm soooooo unbelievably tired

Now it's winter break yeeeey. Here's not so cold, I mean, I wear t-shirts and shorts and all... The last couple of years have become really hot, and I don't like that
There always this stupid mosquitoes, and the sun and dryness and ughhh... I need a part of the year to be cold or at least fresh.......

SSSoooo I'm planning to draw and read A LOT this 3 weeks of break. I hope I can develop a style I can call my own, cuz right now I don't have one. I'm always experimenting with endless styles and sill haven't found the one I feel the most comfortable with....

Any suggestions or ideas for drawing would be great ^^


Bye for now


****goes to bed and takes a box of sleeping pills****
ZZZZZZZzzzzzz_zzzzzzz

hey guys
I just...uhhh...I dunno why I'm writing this....I feel sort of lonely.... gaah all of a sudden the world seems pretty boring.... I dunno.....
I feel I'm not doing any progresion on my art skills. It's not that I'm blocked, no. I do draw every single day, because i love to do so, drawing is everything to me. But, I feel I just don't get any better. If I compare my drawings right now to last year's, they're practically the same. And THAT'S depressing. I really really really want to improve. I want to be able to draw the human body as I wish, not erasing (literally) a hundred times to get at least a wannabe-blob-humanoid-thingie.
I got these ideas in my head. Thousands of them, all very pretty and dinamic and with super whooper strange and psycho colors. but when it comes to translate them into a piece of paper......gaaaaahhh...... I don't even get close to the original concept. I know I know...it's normal and blah blah blah.....but don't come and tell me that's not sad....cause it is....
I have this cool anatomy books lying on the shelf....there...alone in the dark...getting all dusty ....spiders already doing there web....haha, Not so so bad, but, I'd love to use them. If only I had more time.
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Okay Okay.
Changed my mood...feeling emo totally sucks.

I'm convinced and decided I'll do this. I'll try, try very very very hard. I'll try to get my homework done faster with same quality, read the school books with annticipation, I'll try to keep up with the afterschool classes like french or volleyball and keep doing things like parties, stuff etc.... to make a little space dedicated to actually learning new things at drawing and not just draw absentmindedly without any knowledge.....
I don't know how I'm going to do it, But I will

yey I can actually imagine it....
I'll try....
I'll try to improve, even if it is little by little.
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Leaving a comment would be lovely. I'd love to read what you have to say. You're probably saying something like "oh wtf! totally bipolar". But the truth is that feeling sad or angry is horrible. It makes me fisically sick, my tummy and my head hurts.....so, If I have the chance to avoid those feelings...why not??

hasta la vista
besitos y abrazos

and I'm sick as hell. lol .
let me give you a piece of advice: avoid eating the food served on a plane.
you will save yourself from fever, head ache, stomach ache and many more things.
people even thought I had the flu haha. Can't blame them, I probably looked like a green zombie walking through the airport.
The thing is that, it was a hard flight: 12 hours aboard 3 different planes, my head about to explode, feeling dizzy and cold all the freaking time, people staring at me afraid to get infected lol (at least this made me laugh, I even scared the ladies on the plane who gave me immediatly paracetamol and sent me to the last row of the plane).
I'm now at Maringá and I have been sleeping at the hotel for almost one complete day by now, I feel too bad to go out
at least, I think I'm doing the right thing, get sleep, not eating strange things or nothing at all till it gets over. I have no more fever, so that's a good sign. I hope to feel better by the time me and my dad fly to Río de Janeiro

bah bye people, have a nice day

<sub>hey there! Been a while since I updated this thing...
I know most of you don't read journals, but here's for the ones that read it ^^
EMM...so.....in a month school' will be over and I'll have vacations yeeeeeeeey

This summer I will study french....I'll finish my guitar lessons... and probably will take taekwondo
Also I will study HARD anatomy ^^
I can take a few requests, if you want.
I also want to read a lot mostly, Classics. I have in mind many titles, like Moby Dick, Dracula, Frankenstein, Little Women, Les Misérables, the Secret Garden, Robinson Crusoe, Treasure Island, Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea, A Journey to the Center of the Earth, Around the World in Eighty Days, The Time Machine, The War of the Worlds, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, Siddhartha, Sherlock Holmes, Don Quijote de la Mancha, Invisible Man, the Scarlette Letter, Edgar A. Poe stories, The Underground City............err can't think of more right now............... (currently i'm reading The Godfather)

Any other you think I should read?? plz? I enjoy most: science-fiction, fiction, fantasy, mystery, terror, suspense......

You guys, what do you enjoy most reading?
What will you do this vacations??
fav movies?? fav music/band/singer?</sub>


buh-bye ***comment please***
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